Life was so simple as a kid. I did what I wanted (of course within the boundaries of the rules). I played outside when I wanted to, I played legos when I wanted to, I rested and slept when I wanted to. Never did I overanalyze what I was doing, I just did the most natural things that made me happy as a kid.
Somewhere along the way life became more complicated. At some point I started planning and preparing for my future. Maximizing my productivity became a priority. Work, sports, exercise, and extracurriculars became compartmentalized into schedules designed to maximize my overall output. Is this how we were meant to live? I can’t imagine so because it feels so wrong.
I want to break this paradigm and go back to what I knew was right as a kid: being free and doing what I wanted. So my next crazy idea is: I’m only going to work when I feel like it. Say what? Yes, you heard correct. From now on I plan on only working when I actually want to, and when I don’t I won’t. It’s such a simple and natural idea!
The basic idea is if I don’t feel like working there must be a reason. I could be lacking sleep, been working too long, or perhaps I just don’t enjoy what I’m doing. The point is my mind/body is telling me something is wrong.
But now, instead of ignoring these signals and trying to battle my way through, I should do something about it! Take a nap, take a break, or worse comes to worse maybe a job change is needed. Fix myself before I fix my code. The human instinct is an amazing thing and tells us so much about what we need if only we listened.
Ok, sounds great, but we live in a modern world with real deadlines. Just because I’m having a bad day doesn’t mean I can just miss deadlines. True, but here’s the point. If I know I need to get something done and I refuse to work if I don’t feel like it then I better as hell make sure that I do feel like working when the time comes around.
All I’m doing is elevating the priority of my well-being over my productivity. For once, I want to think of myself before the creation of some generic computerized product. Who could’ve thought of such a crazy idea?!
Having said all this, yes, I do believe that persevering and pushing myself to finish a goal is sometimes necessary and very rewarding. But I can’t imagine going through this everyday is healthy and in the end I think it is just unfair to myself. Is my productivity really worth my vitality and happiness? I think not.
So from now on I’ll be working only when I feel like it. I’ll keep a journal keeping track of my activities. Hopefully I’ll be as productive in the end while breaking the monotony of the 8 hour workday. Let’s see how this goes